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this weekend didnt go as expected. i slept at pats after his party on friday, then saturday was prom which by the way was absolutely amazing, we got hundreds of pictures taken of us by random people we didnt even know. the duct tape stuff came out awesome. then pats party which was ridiculous and me and drew left around 2 or 3 ish and went to god, chilled then came home and crashed. sunday morning we woke up and went to boston. we met up with sackett, sue, alex, rolli, and ronny in rhode island and we all hung out in boston. we left around midnight ish and got home around 2 ish and i fucking passed out the whole way. monday was the family picnic crap but it was actually fun. josh was there and john showed up later. then i crashed again. everything is ridiculous. i love it.
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[May0505] |
drew wants me updateeeeeeeeee so i am.
hung out like usual the past few days. not going to school at all anymore. im going to do my junior year over again. its much easier that way. ooh nice and this way i wont be 17 years old in my freshman year of college! ill be 18! nice.
ive been working on prom stuff a whole lot. we're almost done with everything. i think my favorite part of it is drews red duct tape tie. him and ronny made it today. along with a red swastaka that is taped to the side of drews house.
p.s. hes jewish.
i cannot wait for this weekend. theres a party friday, then prom saturday which teresa and lauren are coming to help me get ready for. then after prom, of course. then boston on sunday until monday and then theres a party monday night because tuesday is senior skip day (like that makes a difference) and then tuesday theres a barbeque at drews. everyones coming. im pumped. teresa and lauren are coming down on friday for the wholeeeeeeeee weekenddddddddd and i cannot waittttttttt i love those girls.
tonight was so relaxing. i needed tonight. we did our usual crap, worked on prom stuff, then everyone went home.. me and drew layed in bed and listened to placebo (the band. not what teresa and i are.) and talked about life and our childhoods so we could get to know everything about eachother. he makes me terribly happy. we just layed in the dark and talked to eachother and we were happy together away from the mess that we live in the middle of.. everything stressful went away and i was actually happy and relaxed for the first time in months..... and then my mom called screaming "where are youuuuuuuuuu its so lateeeeeee" but whatever, it was much needed, and im not in trouble one bit.
ive fallen in love. not in need like what ive had, but in love. i dont need this because i was happy before it, but this makes everything complete.
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[May0505] |
went to massachusetts this weekend. drew brought me to redding yesterday and we hung out with my sisters and brother and went to my brothers all-star try out. he definitely made the team because hes fucking amazing. my cousin had her baby. i got an mp3 player. its cute. ryan barnes hates me. it makes me want to cry but i dont cry so thats just not going to happen. but it still makes me sad. im going to see teresa tomorrow. shes going to get her septum pierced. i kept a secret from her for the first time in my whole life. but she kept one from me too so we're even. i fucking love her. her and i dropped out. i just go to like 45 minutes of school everyday to hang out with my friends and meet up to make plans. we're going to move to the city. im going to miss drew. i will live with my best fucking friend and not worry about anything. im going to work all day long. and im going to love it. i fucking love working. i love it. i cant wait to do something for myself instead of trying to be normal for everyone to look at me.
teresa's getting her septum pierced tomorrow. shes so fucking hot.
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how come no one makes me go to school and no one cares that im home everyday until i go out at night and dont come home until fucking late? why is this fucking amazing? but why does it bother me a little bit too...
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[May0505] |
went into school late today. i had to talk with my mom and guidance couselor and stuff. then she left and i hung out in the library the rest of the day. after school me and drew, rolli ronny andy goose bobby and alex hung out. drew and i watched them jam, then we went to fyi and watched resident evil. i talked to morgan and justin tonight in the first time in forever, and im going to hang out with justin ben alicia weber and jess on saturday. but no one except justin and weber know that yet. its going to be amazing. drew and i went out to dinner with his parents. it was cute. we really need to work on prom stuff. i really need to get money. im not going to get kicked out. for some reason, tom and my mom are kissing my ass and letting me do whatever i want. its amazing. im not going to ask questions.
i have to go back to jimmys tomorrow with drew because they ran out of applications today. we're going to work there and end up killing ourselves. its going to be absolute hell. jimmys is satan's other asshole.
we drove around and listened to mitch. fucking hillarious. we had our philosophical moments as well. which reminds me. i want to go back to that spot way out on the beach that no one knows about to mark our chairs. they will be marked "our chairs."
i want to drop out of school. i cant wait for that to happen. its not like im learning anything anyways. i dont want to go tomorrow. i probably wont. awesome. i didnt shower today either. i dont think im going to anymore. i did fine today without showering. i dont need it anyways. who showers these days. no one. me either.
we're making solid plans for boston. its going to be amazing. everyone's going. prom is going to be fire. i'll have the best time ever. being grounded is awesome. im allowed to do whatever i want. im happy.
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